Welcome (a little late) to National Eating Disorder Awareness Week!
Usually I am on top of and prepared for awareness week every year, but this year it snuck up on me. This year I have been busy with recovery, which feels very fitting for this week.
Every week I am attempting new challenges, taking better care of myself, and doing more and more healing. I feel strong in my recovery, stronger than I have ever been. And it continues to improve the more effort and hard work I put into it. The hopelessness I used to feel was the farthest thing from the truth. There is hope in recovery and I have continuously been finding it in the challenges I overcome, the strength I gain every day, and the more healing I do.
Last week I was so proud of myself for yet another successful year of celebrating my birthday. It may seem insignificant to most people, but after so many years of believing that I was undeserving and too worthless to have a birthday, especially over the last 5 years having it be within 10 days of the anniversary being raped, it is a huge accomplishment. This year especially with the anniversary being so big and choosing one of my favorite yet most feared fear-foods for my birthday dinner. I enjoyed my dinner. I did not fear it. I enjoyed my Seahawks cake, too. And that is huge!
This awareness week, I can remember these things and be especially proud. Recovery is possible and full recovery is closer and closer.
To read what I wrote for Provincial Eating Disorder Awareness Week, go here!